Patience!!

Hello!!

I am sitting at our dining table in our new apartment!! Unfortunately the excitement has worn off and realization has set in that I am 5,000 miles away from what I use to call home!! I have cried, feared, and wanted to run back to the US!! But I can't runaway!! I have a husband, three girls, and a church that is depending on me!! So I must stay!! I sit here this morning remembering the little girl we lost in 2009, Rebekah-Ann Patience. She was with us for two short weeks and then the Lord called her home because she had finished her course, she fought a good fight, and she had kept the faith (2 Timothy 4:7)!! We couldn't decide if we wanted to use Ann or Patience as her middle name so we chose both. We learned so much during that time. I was put in the hospital at 20 weeks and 5 days of gestation because my water had broke! It was a very trying time because I had to lay for those three weeks flat on my back. I couldn't sit up, I couldn't walk, I couldn't take a shower, I couldn't go to the bathroom!! So you can probably imagine the frustration I felt!! I had a 3 and 2 year old girls at home that needed a mom but I couldn't!! Well, I feel I am in that same situation once again. I sit here trying to be patient while I want to run home but I can't move!! The Lord God Almighty has brought me here and He'll be the one to keep me here!! I am doing pretty good today and I am hoping to decorate the apartment to make it feel like home!! These three girls that the Lord has blessed me with are most of the time my joy, reason, and happiness to continue on!! They come and love on me and tell me everything is okay even when they don't understand what mommy is going through!!